Im Just Laying It All Out Here and Just Hopeing Someone Can Help me.Its Long I Understand ):answer?

Question by Zoila Nevay .: Im just laying it all out here and just hopeing someone can help me.Its long i understand ):answer?
Im the type of girl who you can be best friends with and know nothing about.I keep my guard up twenty four seven because whenever i let it down i get disappointed and boy don’t i hate that feeling.Im in 8th grade and don’t think im some kind of emotionally disturbed teen cause im not i just hate talking about my feelings i keep everything bottled in and then one day my parents yell at me and i explode my mom says i have a little anger management problems cause i slam doors and punch things but im not out of control.I just wish i could let my guard down to the point where i don’t have to keep alot of things in.
I feel way more comfortable spilling my life out on the internet to complete strangers then to talk about something with my brother or best friend.

-My dad had his first drink at 10 years old because his mom thought it was so cute to see him drink a mini coors and now my parents 28 years of marriage is in jeopardy just because my dad loves the damn beer bottle more then he loves his family.I told him if you love me and mom and want us to stay stop drinking dad or at least try please and the next day what did he do he went to quick mart and bought a quart . I can’t stand how he is when he drinks i hate the person he his i hate it ! and i have no one to talk to so i just go to my room and listen to music and just try and forget about it but deep inside its bottled up. The only time i recall him not drinking for two weeks straight was when my grandma died.

-My brother i love him to freaking death and i just wish he could come live with us but nope. He’s off to college in fresno trying to survive but the struggle is he’s a huge slacker he’s missing work to play baseball because he expects my parents to pick up his slack.

-ALL THE STRESS FROM MY PARENTS JOBS ; MY PARENTS ARGUMENTS; OUR MONEY PROBLEMS GET PUT ON ME ! and im not over reacting my mom looks at our bills and gets in a bad mood and when im like mom she goes off like a ticking time bomb and yells at me and tells me to clean the whole house and crap like that.
I just hate this .!
I really want to go talk to a therapist just me and get so much things off my chest but we have no money for that and my mom thinks im a stable child but if this continues im going to have even worse anger problems 🙁
Help advice?anything

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Answer by EmoWristband
Um… runaway?
How about you just try to work things out with your parents?
It might be hard, but is’nt it worth it?
And instead of keeping things bottled inside, pur your feelings out in like a diary or something.
It makes you feel better.
TRUST ME.

Answer by Necro 1211
For all you’re going through and how young you are, you are very smart and good at figuring out why people (including yourself) are the way they are. Many adults can’t even do that. 🙂

A suggestion I have is talking to someone at school. Guidance counselors can be like free therapists. Of course, you’d need to work on being able to open up to someone in person to talk to one, but I think that would be good for you. (You’d need to open up in person to a professional therapist anyway.)

Another idea I had is, you could search for chat rooms, message boards, or groups online that focus on teen issues. I think you’d be able to weed out the bad ones and find something that was useful for venting purposes until you were ready to talk to someone else in person. I wish I could help you more.

I really hope things get easier on you. Best wishes!

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